41集:來不及 - 中視
By Enid
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來不及
「還怪到我頭上啊。」
「當然要怪妳啊。要是我的肺黑了話,妳要負責幫我清洗乾淨。」
「得寸進尺。」(頓)「那你心痛,要不要到我這裡來住院?」
(摘心,伸手)「喏,現在就拿去,」
「要不,我離婚了你就戒菸。」
(手還伸著)「一言為定。」
自強一村很少下雨。看完41集再回頭看39集這一幕,我忽然想到張宇的那首
「傘下」,那種期望雨下不完、時間更緩慢的心情,那種想靠近對方卻被阻擋的
慌張。
39集的時候,因為那句毫不遲疑的「一言為定」,讓我對邦茜的無緣又升起
了一絲希望:果然,果然還是只有復邦,只有復邦,會把茜茜的每一句話都視若
珍寶地放在心上;只有復邦,會讓在任何人面前都能笑著出演幸福模樣的茜茜,
流露「實際上只剩下過往」的脆弱和偽裝成堅強的倔強。這樣的兩個人,應該,
應該還有在一起的機會,不會就這樣分開的……對吧?
對於茜茜嫁給保羅、以及對保羅態度這件事,雖然我同情保羅,也同意就面
對婚姻承諾而言,茜茜做的真的完全不及格,但我始終沒有辦法對她產生類似不
滿或憤怒等負面情緒。我只是搖頭,很難過地說:茜,妳這樣做不好,對自己不
好也對愛妳的人不好。而且我不懂,不懂她非得這麼做的那個「執念」在哪裡:
到底是哪個執念,讓她明明愛著復邦又懷著他的孩子,再加上復邦那個始終不
變、毫不遲疑的「一言為定」,她也原諒了陶媽……到底是為了什麼,讓她如此
地無法轉圜?
直到41集復邦和毅源在村口的對話,我才明白自己一直以為:復邦是被推開
的,他一直守在那裡的想法,是錯誤的。早在34集,在小學教室裡,在知道一切
真相後,仍舊提出分手的人,是陶復邦。
「汪茜茜就是汪茜茜,知道我要是要跟人打架,就會先奮不顧身地去把我推
開。茜,我這麼重,推開我要花多大的力氣啊?」
「因為值得。為你,一切都值得了。」
陶媽的那個約定,為了復邦,茜茜用盡力氣才把他推開,她能用的方式,是
避不見面和善意的謊言。但當謊言已被拆穿,所有的喬裝在復邦面前無所遁形的
時候,已經大到「不怕她」、敢把她的菸丟掉的復邦,如果要握住她的手,她真
的能逃開嗎?
外表來看,茜茜看似是這段關係的主導者;但就感情來說,從十歲開始就緊
緊抓住這段緣份的人,是復邦。復邦的執著和情感,使原本深受許毅源吸引的茜
茜,漸漸對他放下了情感。讓這段關係成形的力量,從來就在復邦身上。直到這
一次,當茜茜鬆手,他循著過往的認識找到逃走的她之後,為了精神失常的復
華,為了陶爸陶媽,他沒有握住茜茜的手,而是選擇了跟她道別。
這一道別,交會已然分岔。自此之後,茜茜獨自承擔家庭的壓力,成全復邦
的放手,成全復邦的選擇。保羅誤會毅源是她念念不忘的前男友,娟娟一美始終
誤會陶媽是邦茜之間的罪人--為什麼她不澄清?在復邦來看毛毛時,答案出現
了:她不要他後悔,不要他痛苦,不要讓他覺得分手是他的錯。
這恐怕是感情上,她擱在心中的第一件事--為了復邦。
所以當我聽到毅源說:「那是他們的家務事……除非她向你求救。」當我重
看39集,發現那句「一言為定」,是建立在「茜茜離婚」之上的時候,當我發現
復邦終究只有伸出手,而茜茜也始終沒有伸手的時候,我才明白,那句一言為
定,在愛情來說,是太晚,太慢,太少了。
茜茜也許會跟保羅去加拿大。但不論未來如何,她和復邦之間的緣份,早在
小學教室沒有抱緊對方的同時逝去。即使曾有後悔,時機過去,就已經來不及了。
是來不及了吧。
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其實41集想寫的很多,但時間不夠了……
其他的下次再補吧。^^||
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一隻鳥飛過去了,天空還在。就是這樣。
我懷疑,但,就是這樣了。
有時候,眼睛只肯告訴我這麼多。
陳斐雯 貓蚤札(其三)
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