原本以為自己對陶家的戲會很不耐煩的... - 中視
By Thomas
at 2009-01-23T02:56
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昨晚看了預告,有點不耐煩的想,明天又要轉回陶家看哭哭啼啼的要不要告訴陶媽得癌
症的戲了,還好今天要補習,可以直接一邊跟R2一邊唸書,不會太浪費時間,如果整集
都在哭就不要看了,沒想到陶媽的戲竟讓我的眼淚滴個沒完。
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我想到我媽之前住院時,自己的心情轉折
媽媽身體很爛,是醫不好的那種老病號,那次住院前已經發燒燒了4天,初步檢查結果是
細菌感染入侵到腎臟所以發燒,進一步原因要等細菌培養結果。住院後的一週還是天天
不定時的發燒。X光片結果出爐,一個腎臟,一邊有有陰影,疑似腎結石,另一邊,疑似
有3~4公分的瘤,所有人的心都沈到谷底,每個人都往最壞的地方想...
我還記得,住院的媽媽,雖然發著燒,但我推她到窗邊的時候,她告訴我,如果真的是
最壞的結果,那就要勇敢面對,我點頭,說我懂。我又抬頭,是怕眼淚會不小心滴出來
那天醫院迴廊的燈光我還記得清清楚楚,亮亮的,但好空。媽媽接著交代好多好多事情
,非得要每件事情都交代得清清楚楚才安心,我一一的記在紙上。後來,我們說了些笑
話後,我又把媽媽推回病房。
住院第三天,媽媽說她要簽放棄侵入性治療急救的同意書,她說她要趁她很清醒的時候
自己簽,不要讓我們有任何為難的機會。同意書需要兩個見證人。雖然想到這種放手很
痛,但我不要為了自己的捨不得,讓媽媽受這種多餘的痛苦,若真有個萬一,我也不要
媽媽躺在病床上每天痛苦的讓人抽痰、不能講話也不能吃東西的度過餘生。於是,一秒
也沒有遲疑的,我點頭,說ok。我告訴自己,真要有什麼事的話,我這個女兒會很堅強
也會很勇敢,所以我不要讓媽媽覺得我很擔心很害怕:)
最後,感謝老天,媽媽平安出院。
回家的那一天媽媽還是虛的不得了,走沒幾步路就會喘。可是我們好高興,媽媽回家了。
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我可以體會復邦拍雄說什麼也要媽媽去開刀的心情,可是開刀就會好嗎?會不會連開刀
都熬不過?接下來的治療真的救得了陶媽嗎?如果在那個年代,癌症幾乎是不治之症,
真要讓陶媽在醫院一直被折磨到死只為了多那麼一些沒有尊嚴的生命長度嗎?
槓一輩子的老夫老妻,有著想瞞也瞞不住的默契。
想了一夜,堅強的陶媽,怕自己給落了什麼,把要交代的全給記在紙上,她想清楚了,
人生的最後一段,她不要有任何遺憾,她不要在醫院度過餘生,她在這個世界的最後聞
到的最後一口空氣,不要是醫院的消毒水的味道。她想回家,她想過個好年。
從沒槓贏過的陶爸,懂了,依了老陶婆。
夫妻倆緊握著手,硬漢陶爸忍不住哭了,什麼也不用說,他們,會好好過這最後一段夫
妻生活,他們是當年曾許下一起走一輩子諾言的老陶與老陶婆。
陶媽穿著喜氣的紅色,在兒子的攙扶下,回到了家,家裡有個媳婦等著。一家人的臉上
都掛著笑容,邊把眼淚往肚裡吞。不知道是老陶的菜鹹,還是眼淚鹹。看著最愛的家人,
即將過門的媳婦,打小科班出身的陶媽,興起的來上這麼一段..催淚程度比起四郎探母
有過之而無不及!
面對死亡我們都會感到恐懼,逞一時之快的不是勇敢,意氣之爭也不是。
我看見,在餐桌前的陶家人,是真正勇敢的,緊緊抓著彼此,對抗命運給的考驗。
好好珍惜自己的家人吧:)
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