茜茜,聰明的傻子 - 中視
By Necoo
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馮媽說:別做聰明的傻子,真的應證在茜身上了。
看著茜茜昨天對保羅的冷漠,還有她咬牙切齒的叫幾摳不要再管她的事。這個茜
茜,真的好傻。傻到即使知道誰對她好,但卻已經拒絕去接受別人的好意。
她曾說過她知道張叔是好人,但是如果自己承認張叔是個好爸爸,那自己的爸爸
又算什麼?她做出討厭張叔、潑他冷水的那些事,只是要證明:她很愛她爸。然而,張叔
的突然離去,除了讓茜茜後悔自己曾經的作為以外,卻沒有讓茜茜反省,讓她明白:三不
五時,愛要及時的道理。
在茜的心裡,她知道保羅是好人,可是如果愛保羅,那復邦算什麼?更別提肚子
裡的「疑復子」了。我一直認為現在的茜只是在人生的路上迷了路,因為害怕,所以變得
更帶刺。茜不是生下來就那麼沈重傷感的,她天生是聰明人,卻不到那個聰明的傻子。所
以,我擔心她被命運的浪愈捲愈遠。
傻瓜茜一號:一直以為愛只有一種方式、一個對象。所以她給了父親的愛,不能
收回、不能給張叔;她給了復邦的愛,不能收回、不能給保羅。也許是因為她從小被「背
叛」的陰影:愛著父親,但父親卻離開她;愛著母親,但母親改嫁(這個張媽,嘖嘖...留
給francie來教訓 XDD);連那個她明明很愛,卻死不承認的張叔,都放棄她給的愛了。在
她心裡,也許認定了「會變化的愛」就是一種背叛。所以她選擇和對待張叔一樣的冷漠來
對待保羅。
傻瓜茜二號:沒有好事會到我身上。茜不會不知道保羅是好人,更不會不知道自
己這樣利用保羅很殘忍。我不相信茜會喜歡這樣的自己:一個看起來眼裡只有錢、只愛錢
只要錢的自己。在她叫幾摳不要再管她的事的眼神裡,我看到她對自己的痛恨。從來不相
信有什麼好事是和自己有關,父親的離開、母親的再嫁、姊姊的殘缺、邦茜的苦戀一直到
張叔閃電便當。
沒有人來教這個孩子:那不是妳的錯;沒有人來教這個孩子:轉個身,就把陰影
踩在腳跟。所以,從一開始的「懷疑這些鳥事為什麼會發生」,漸漸變成:「是不是因為
我才發生?」
傻瓜茜三號:忘了自己有朋友。幾摳曾說過,不要讓茜離他們更遠,還有要茜多
見見老朋友,才能記得自己原來的樣子。可惜這些話,抵擋不住茜生命裡的洪水猛獸,這
殘酷的現實已將茜茜捲進一個自己都找不到出口的陰暗角落。
與其說我擔心邦茜的漸行漸遠,不如說我更擔心茜茜找不到回家的路。那個在小
學裡抱著復邦哭的茜,那個坐在馮媽身邊和復邦鬥嘴的茜,那個在鬼洞裡幫復邦拔玻璃刺
的茜,那個總是不經意流露出小小溫柔的茜,是那麼閃閃發亮又動人;現在的茜,迷失在
自己的選擇裡,看不到生命為她綻放的美好,看不到自己擁有的幸福。卻又因為害怕拖累
別人而拒絕伸出手,因為害怕被看到脆弱而拒絕說出口,所以自己橫衝直撞,遍體麟傷。
茜和張媽一樣嗎?我不覺得。對張媽來說,嫁人是活不下去時的選擇;但是對茜
來說,保羅只是她為孩子找的一個「出口」,讓孩子不要生下來時變成「私生子」的一個
藉口。張媽愛張叔勝於四個小孩,而茜則是為了小孩寧願背負某些罪名(賣身換來的錢)
這兩個人,雖然母女做的決定相同,但所經歷和所想的完全不同。不那麼結果論的話,茜
的確比她媽媽更堅強。
PS. 我也覺得茜對保羅太殘忍了。殘忍到我對茜的幸福幾乎要絕望。不過版上已經那麼多
人為聖保羅(笑)叫屈,而且看法精闢,那我只好來分享一下我對這陣子的茜的觀察了。
另外,突然想到很久以前幾摳的話:「狠心也是一種善良」也許茜茜早就打定主
義要讓聖保羅恨她、離開她,所以才對保羅那麼無情吧!用傷害自己的幸福來懲罰自己,
是對自己最殘忍的作法了。(嘆)
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